Equinox

There are two types of energies in the world that impact us: the natural i.e. physics, and the human energies. It is interesting how there are two contrasting ideas prevailing on this - that the two energies have nothing to do with each other, or, are in fact interchangeable. The truth however is that natural energy is the source of human energy, like a river from which we merely draw a small tributary. However, when its fluid passes through us, something happens. It becomes good or bad energy, acquiring a quality it did not have before. Nature is, after all, amoral.

Yesterday, when I left hawaii I had the privilege of experiencing good and bad human energies in equal amounts. Quite fitting as it was the day of the autumnal equinox. Until now the idea that some people carry "ill energy" was one that I just played around with in my mind. Now I realize the importance of trusting my instincts on this and avoiding such individuals. I suppose if I was enlightened, like the Buddha, I could cure such energy or neutralize it. However, at this point my system finally rebelled against it uncontrollably, a lot like throwing up in public. I'm glad I did throw up though, with the consequent feeling of relief in the stomach and the onset of a low fever that should hopefully lead to a cure.

Well, bully for me. Moving on, it is nice to be in LA as the old smells, images and memories come flooding back. Yesterday, on the way to G's house, the supershuttle drove through Caltech and for the first time I realized that Caltech had a unique smell. Not a bad smell - one of old books, wood and mist rolled into one. It reminded me of times when there was a small group of techers that secretly dreamt of being young Feynmans and yet felt inadequate because blondes didnt seem to care much for young quantum physicists. It was saddening because, after all, Feynman used to get girls didn't he? It said so in his book. But he also won the Nobel Prize and invented Quantum Electrodynamics.

We were no Feynmans. Between reality and its perceived version too can lie a deep gulf. Like night and day...

Well, the Equinox is over and nights are getting longer than days by the minute. We will see what happens next.